Recently I have been watching Janet Frame's An Angel at My Table again, for about the squillienth time.
Is there a better film - or indeed book - about being sensitive and writing? Or about sensitive writing?
And when I went on Youtube to look up some scenes to put up here, then this is exactly the one I would hope to find because it sums up so exactly my fears (and I know not just mine) about standing up in public:
Almost, but just not quite, unbearable. That's what you would call what happens next in the film.
Of course, this has nothing whatsoever to do with the fact that I'm going up to Bristol today to present the prize at the Short Story Prize there. Actually, it really hasn't. I've read most of the stories that will be appearing in the anthology now. And I can tell you that they are absolutely sensational. It's going to be a real honour to meet everyone, and to get to talk to the writers.
And of course to help make the winner deservedly happy.... Sometimes I really really do love my life!